We're back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, it's been a hell of a year ... or more. Without boring anyone with details or forcing you to listen to me whine, let's just say my "Wedded Bliss My Ass" card came to life ... morphed into a universe-destroying tornado, and then exploded. Those who I thought were closest to me were the ones trying hardest to completely destroy me & I really couldn't grasp that emotionally, which then turned into depression & self-pity until I started trying to completely destroy my own self. Wow, that sounds crazy... It's been interesting.

The positive thing that came out of it ... I found out who my true family & friends are.

I'm finding myself smiling & laughing again lately. Which is kind of important when you're a humorous greeting card writer.

For 6 months my business has been dead in the water.

I worked too hard & too long to just let it go because of tornado's & explosions.

We're back!!!!!!!!

Life

Priorities.
Work.
Family.
Life.
Love.

In the same 2 week period, my granddaughter and my dad both ended up being hospitalized.

They're fine now, home, happy. But it was one of those moments that made me look back - when it was all over - and say to myself ...
ALL of the things I was falling behind on, work not getting done -- in as timely a manner as I usually like -- house looking like a tornado passed through ... none of it, is as important as I would've said it was, two weeks ago.

Ever changing

Feels like life is changing ... again. Everything always changes, I know. But a lot of the time, I don't see it coming. Sometimes I feel it coming, but I'm not aware enough of the significance of it all ... then I can look back & say: "gee, I should have seen that coming." But now ... everything is changing. I can see it, I can feel it ... & I'm scared. And I'm excited.

My daughter is moving out of the apartment upstairs, into her own apartment (in town). And she's taking my grandbabies with her. It's just so convenient having them right here. But I know it'll be more normal -- for her -- if she's not living with mommy at 23 yrs old.

And it's been crowded. We're foster parents. And we have a fairly large old house. Since I work at home, and since my daughter moved in (& required the entire upstairs) ... my workspace -- my OFFICE -- is shared with our bedroom. It's squished. It's hard to concentrate. It impossible to organize. My office space is less than half the size it was before. So yes, I'm looking forward to having my office space back. If a feng shui person saw this space right now, they'd run screaming.

All of it though, is leaving an uneasy feeling in my gut. A lot like butterflies. Fear of the unknown I suppose. Also, partly, me losing control of the situation. (Did I mention I have control issues? -- well, they're not really issues, so long as I'm in control.)

Scary.